Reflections...THANKS!

It's been so long since I've been writing here. 1 cuz I've been busy settling into my new job, another juz too busy with work.

Since coming into this company, this new line, new environment, new field of work, new colleagues...I know I've been FULL of complaints and complaints (look through my FB)! Also, my temper has been flying everywhere and anywhere (in all directions, over all sorts of SMALL/BIG things).

I've chosen the worst way to cope with this changes, and my friends and family (mostly friends) have to take the blunt of my change...namely my temper!

Need to express my utmost sincere THANKS to all my friends who's had to endure with me throughout this period, and also SPECIAL THANKS to all who's walk through this 'hardship' with me. Although my temper is still not back to when I was at my best, at my most patience, but has defintely improved since coming into this company.

I'm more or less back to my joyous self, although I STILL complaints alot (but since when have I not complaint before?). Haha

So people, if the next time I'm shouting at you or showing you attitude, please bear with me. Although I've been in this company for close to 4 months now, I'm still new and learning alot of things. So, I'm still under a lot of stress and pressure, I'm not looking for excuse for me to fly my temper, but just stating what will COME in the future. It's bound to happen again, but I'm just hoping that I would not be as bad as I am right now, or when I first started out in the field.

But no matter what, if you feel that you need to give me a sound scolding, just go ahead (but better to do it when I've cooled-down), I will be able to take it, and will love to hear it from you guys. That's when I will be able to change for the better and know where I'm erring at, or being unreasonable at. I will not be able to see myself when my temper is flying you see, thus will not be able to stop myself, so I will need all if you to help me.

The thing that I've notice about myself at the moment that's causing a lot of 'pain' to my friends are my complaints and temper, so if anyone feels that there's something else that I should have reflected on, please let me know.

THANKS TO ALL!!!!

sianz.....

I'm getting more and more demoralised at work...no motivation to start doing my project AT ALL!

Even thou I'm VERY tight on my deadline, I can't find it in myself to start doing it at all...there's nothing wrong with this job...so it's ME?

Is it me that can't stay long in a job? Why? Had a msn chat with Val, and she told me lots of things about myself that I guessed I had known ALL ALONG, but refused to OPEN my eyes to. Even now, I still don't know what I'm feeling so down on...

Tried to quit, boss would accept my letter...but as days goes, I find myself less n less happy at work. It's beginning to become a drag.

New Job...New Start...Down Down Down

Hai~i juz started my new job for the 3rd day, and im feeling so lost and down sia...
Normally should be excited and happy starting at new company, new environment...but im so lost and down, that im not my normal self when at work...
My boss actually asked me if im usually so quiet...GOSH! He finds me quiet, and tt is really not me lah!

The only plus is i can use the net! On FB, Blogging and Msn-ing evidae....
but even tis cannot last me for long sia...pls help me!

Hong Kong...Good Start, Bad End

Day 1 -- Going to Hong Kong



Night before departure, was comtemplating if I shld sleep or not, end up decided to bunk in with my mei, and we chatted for an hr or more before conceeding defeat to e sleeping worms.

Less then an hr later, we both got up to get ready for departure to airport, for our flight.



After check-in, walked around the airport for a while, as it's realli small and BUDGET, there's nothing much to see or shop, so we ended up seating down waiting for boarding.



Boarding the flight is a new experience for me, as there is no tarmac, but we get to walk towards the aircraft and climb the steps n in we go...



Upon arrival, we spent quite some time to finally get to the counter for our transfer...we actualli walked up n down the terminal 2 to 3 times before we get onto the bus and arrive at the hotel...



After checking in, and resting for a while, we decided to venture out for food and shopping of cuz.

Our first meal was actualli KFC, and guess what? They have RICE together with chicken in a mel and it's delicious and filling.

We went to 女人街and 花园街first, the proceeded to 庙街. Bought my boots, tiger home slipper and other cute stuff. Managed to get most of my presents on the first day in Hong Kong!



Day 2 -- The Peak / Star of Walks


Woke up early, bath and off we go to The Peak.

Took the tram up and first stop, the wax musuem.

Took picture with all the 'celebrities' and all, guess who I saw there? Lee Kuan Yew sia...hahaha of cuz I have to take a pic with him...

Then we start shopping around the peak, had lunch at Jungle Fruits, bought shirts from Hard Rock and we left for Star of walks.
Ir sure is cold like hell there at night! I was actually in sweats after walking for such a long time just looking for the way to get there, but in a VERY very short time (less than 5mins), I'm so cold that I haf my cardigan on with my shawl wrapped around my neck...hahaha

Day 3 -- Ocean Park

We had originally wanted to book the transfer n entrance ticket iwth the hotel tour desk the day before, but after checking, there only have a half day city tour plus ocean park all packed into 1-day, and costes HKD 460 per person. But we had already toured most of the places, thus we decided to go there on own very self!

It's a very good experience actually, as we get to take bus in Hong Kong! Hahaha their buses actualli looks lke the ones we haf in SIN, only difference is that their lower deck seats are all facing each other from the first to the last...interesting and awkward sia..

We got off at the back of Ocean park, and never realised it. Started walking around in circles and thinking we r lost. After a haf-hr of walking around in vain, my sis finally figured out our location, we started our tiring yet interesting dae!

The Pandas are really cute!!! So are the fishes and jelly fish. Hude, interesting and beautiful.
Of cuz there's e weird ones and the budging eye goldfish.

Forced by my sis to take the Abyss with her. The one that u will rise into the Sky and fall at top speed! I almost died on my seat sia...
I will never commit suicide sia, at least not by jumping off any where! Couldn't even keep my eyes open for more than a few seconds, especially duing the falling...scary!
I was all cold and shaky when it ended. Sursprise myself when I did not just fall to the ground when I got off the seat, and still managed to walk out of the game area without fainting. Hahaha...
I can fully understand how those people muz haf felt when deciding to jump or not. If it's me, I will never be able to jump sia...

Tired from all the walking and with the weather starting to turn cold, we decided to go back to the hotel around evening time, and make good use of the rest of the evening to do our last min shoppings.
After finishing my dinner, I started to pack my belongings...and realised that my PUMA Jacket is gone from the room...without a trace as to its where abouts.
Called the hotel front desk immediately, even after doing a room and luggage search the next day, still couldn't find. No compensation, no nothing. Hai~~~ (T_T)

Last day -- Back to SIN

Checked out of hotel at 1530 hours and sat at the lobby watching Kindaichi (burn into my Ipod) the whole time till our transfer came. Worse of all, upon arrival in SIN, collecting my luggage...the handle spoiled and hurt myself while trying to drag it. Went to the counter straight away, but again NO COMPENSATION!!! What in the world!

Am I curse or what? Can only blame it on my luck! Im NEVER going back to the hotel --> PANDA HOTEL! and NEVER taking TIGER AIRWAYS again!!!!!

Hai~this is REALLY the worse anyone could get for the end of her holiday! Spoils all MOOD and FUN of the trip!

Poached? To go or to stay?

Am I really poached internally or is he juz asking for fun?

Should I go or should I stay? If I'm not poached but I asked and rejected, will my life turn for the better or worse?

Hmm...am getting more and more tired and restless about my job...
Am I reaching the point that I'm losing the interest in my job, in the industry or juz the company?

Will changing a job scope or even a new company help? Will I be able to stay long in another company doing completely different things?

Sick, Irritated, Just cant understand how pple work!

Went back to work after 1-day MC, and guess what? It clearing SHIT for pple again!!!!!!!!
Super irritating, as this is not the first time that i had to clear for the same damn person...realli don understand how did she even pass her training?

Is she even using her brain?????
Working with her eye and ear CLOSED?
Dont understand pls ASK! You have a mouth and we all have 2 ears to listen and a mouth to answer your queries. Don pretend to know when you don!

Service the call when you get it, and STOP pushing it back and giving all FxxKing excuses! Seriously, it's not my first day at work, and definitely not my first time dealing with them, I know that they are most willing when you wanna help them.
They wont need to look for the same agent! So PLS jolly well service when they are on YOUR line...

Seriouly cant understand, and never will i ever conprehend!
Passion? My FOOT!

Depression

Suddenly realised that I've been blogging much too often tis few days...not a good sign sia...

I'm seriously thinking that I've sink into depression...been feeling really low tis days...everyday is torture to me...keep feel like crying for nothing...even now when im blogging, there's tears circling in my eyes.

Just cant put my finger on the thing/matter or even person tt's causing my downness...even buying things cant cheer me up...shit tis is bad man!
I know i'm really sinking into depression, but i just can't help it...shit shit shit!

Got to clear my hse now as guest is coming....