标题，人生，目标...

每次来到写标题时，我都会想很久，为了让标题能符合我的内容。
今天所写...连我自己都不知道该用啥标题来表达才好，来带出我所想写的。
其实，连我自己都不知道我想写些什么。

再过不久，我现有的人生即将要有所改变，而对于此改变，我又有我的茫然与无助。
因为我不清楚我的决定是否正确。害怕这个改变会让我将来后悔，恐慌这样的变化我会应付不来。更担心我会不知所措。

长这么大以来，这是我第3次如此的慌乱，担心，紧张，害怕，和不知所措。

第1次，是我爸爸过世时。因为他人身在国外，忽然之间，他上司的一通电话就宣告了他的死亡。令我们所有人都手足无措，手忙脚乱，更是忙得天昏地暗。而当时我也不过才16/7岁，却得提前体会人情冷暖，得知人邪恶的一面。尤其是，当那些人们是自家人时，滋味更是不好受。

第2次，是爷爷入院时，临时被通知爷爷有生命危险。赶到医院，却是被通知要有心理准备，顿时更是晴天霹雳。

而第3次，就是现在的改变。我明白人生总有不如意的时候，但是，如果每隔几年都要有一次的话，我不确定我能不能够承受这样的打击于改变。有时真不知我为何如此辛苦。

New tings in life......enjoying! (^_^)

so mny happenings lately...but most importantly are e new tings n happenings in my life...

long time neve blog...cuz no com to use...but i had finalli got my own lap-top during the IT-Show 2008. but e sad ting is i onli had it wif mi fer 2 daes, then OS corrupted...which i haven done aniting n it's corrupted....but anywae it's fixed liao...so im happi wif it...hee hee

new additions in my life...i finalli make up my mind n 'threw' my money to but my sunglass...(^_^)

when to china juz 2 wks ago, cold lke hell...got sick there...mi n my cousin took turn to get sick...she first then mi...guess is cuz we share e same room n bed...then virus pass to each other...thus got sick till so bad...we both had to go c doc e nxt dae we came back...took 2 daes MC...almost freezed there...

new happenings...im goin to a new place n have a new life soon...tis cumin mth is bery impt to mi...new life, new beginning, new post, new place, eviting new...

USA wait fer mi...im cuming! cant wait to go man! USA is calling out to mi....so exciting!

sum fotos frm my china trip...my auntie n her niece (BAD GAL!!) taking pix wif those old times dough maker.

u noe wat word is tt??? tt's those old times writings...its 'wen qi dao chuan'

e boy boy in e pix is beary beary CUTE!!!!

show u guys more pix nxt time...nn to get pix frm my cousin n mei first...