Thursday, April 17, 2008

献给最敬爱的爷爷!

Dedicated to my Beloved 爷爷。Photos of him....in fond memories of 爷爷...I MISSED SO MUCH! since his departure.... (T_T)

mi n yeye in his rm...

yeye in e livinrm in china - first nite there

mi n yeye 2nd time in china

my mama n aunties wif yeye plus e little devil which my yeye lkes alot...

yeye - while waiting to watch e fireworks
Dedicated to my Beloved 爷爷。

于2008年4月11日凌晨2.20 致2.25 之间去世。

没有您在身边的日子真的好难过。爷爷,不知您是以什么心情离开我们,但是可以肯定的是绝对有许多的不舍得,如同我们一样的不舍。
我唯一希望的就是,您走得安心,走得放心。我们一定会找您的遗书所写的去做。经量减少真吵,经常往来。每星期最少见一次,以方便联系,以及维系我们之间的感情。
有很多话想说却不知如何开口。爷爷,我知道您与景天凌晨议会来看我们。不能与您聊天,见是我的遗憾。但是知道您回来过,又免不了开心。

请您千万要放心,虽然我们会很想您,但是我们却不希望您不放心。您与爸爸将永远在我心中。
我们会永远怀念您。我爱您!

请您有空一定要回来探望我们,或是托梦给我们。我们都很想在梦里与您相会。my family with yeye in china

e kids with yeye outside his rm (be4 he came to singapore)

yeye waiting to drink tea...chatting wif relatives

yeye's rm (donation to school, thus classrm was named after him)

yeye n his sister at his birthday dinner celebration
e kids with yeye n xiao lau gu
more photos nxt time....

Friday, April 4, 2008

Betrayal...Cancer...Pain...Tears...

Firstly, tks val fer ur concern...sorry for not replyin ur sms but writing here...cuz im scare tt if u ask mi any qns i might start crying again when i had a hard time stopping myself...

Guys, i noe u r all concern abt mi n my yeye...tks loads...but pls pardon my lack of concern or friendliness to ani of u...cuz now im realli juz concentratin on my yeye...Sorry...

I always thotz tt tis fren of my will not betray mi...but im wrong...but right now...nuting is more painful then lookin at my yeye suffer in pain...n signin out loud...todae we went to e hosp again! it's another dae "wasted" there...

looking at him gettin onto e trolley bed n layin there is such a torture...he's so WEAK tt he cant even stand on his own...i was lookin at him...n i thotz i saw tears in his eyes...he was lookin so helpless n tired...i don noe if it's juz mi or realli there's tears in his eyes...but it realli pain mi to see him suffering lke tis...

u noe...juz not long ago mi n my jie were saying tt although yeye is in pain, he haf a VERY stong will to live on...but tis morning when i saw him...he practically had given up...he don wanna eat animore...we had to force him to eat...breakfast, lunch n dinner...he had no more strengh to even hold e spoon or e bowl which he still could yesterdae...

im corssing my fingers, hoping n praying that some how he would find in himself e courage n strength to bring back his will to live, to eat, to drink, to tok, to laugh, and definitely to WALK! or maybe juz some waes to minimise his pain...his now on morphine...im hopin he could get well enough to be off it...

Pple, im callin out to u guys again to PLEASE pray for him...he realli nn all e help n blessings he can get...i will be VERY thankful to all of you! N please gif mi strength to walk thru all tis wif him...support him...

YEYE, I LOVE YOU!

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Broken HEART...

I'm back frm the U.S.A with a heavy heart, upon hearing e bad news regarding my yeye...i noe sumtimes tings happen without warning, without reason, without PERMISSION! be4 i leave for U.S.A he was still well n about, walking and toking happily...but suddenly after 1 wk, he's not able to walk, vomitting almost wateva he ate and even tokin makes him breathless...

It realli pains my heart to look at him lke tis...(T_T)
I finalli saw him todae, he is so thin tt i could count his ribs without even touching him. He's realli juz a pack of bones now...but at least he's eating sum tings todae without vommiting ani of it...

He needs help in eviting he dos now...seating up, turning around in bed, bathing and even goin to e toilet...he's always in pain...juz tinking of him now makes mi cry...(:_:)
I realli feel very helpless now, cuz i don noe...realli don noe wat i can do for him...n im realli scared tt i will not be able to hold my tears for long infront of him...

Lucky for me, he was not looking at me when i sat beside him todae, n my tears juz flowed out of me without control...but realli...i don even noe if he noes it was me whu was greeting him tis morning...he looks so WEAK n BLUR... (t_t)

Pple whu;s reading tis now, pls PLEASE do me a favour...a BIG favour...Please PRAY for him on my behalf...Please SHOWER him with all your BLESSINGS! I realli appreciate all your help.
Thank you very much!

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

标题,人生,目标...

每次来到写标题时,我都会想很久,为了让标题能符合我的内容。
今天所写...连我自己都不知道该用啥标题来表达才好,来带出我所想写的。
其实,连我自己都不知道我想写些什么。

再过不久,我现有的人生即将要有所改变,而对于此改变,我又有我的茫然与无助。
因为我不清楚我的决定是否正确。害怕这个改变会让我将来后悔,恐慌这样的变化我会应付不来。更担心我会不知所措。

长这么大以来,这是我第3次如此的慌乱,担心,紧张,害怕,和不知所措。

第1次,是我爸爸过世时。因为他人身在国外,忽然之间,他上司的一通电话就宣告了他的死亡。令我们所有人都手足无措,手忙脚乱,更是忙得天昏地暗。而当时我也不过才16/7岁,却得提前体会人情冷暖,得知人邪恶的一面。尤其是,当那些人们是自家人时,滋味更是不好受。

第2次,是爷爷入院时,临时被通知爷爷有生命危险。赶到医院,却是被通知要有心理准备,顿时更是晴天霹雳。

而第3次,就是现在的改变。我明白人生总有不如意的时候,但是,如果每隔几年都要有一次的话,我不确定我能不能够承受这样的打击于改变。有时真不知我为何如此辛苦。

Saturday, March 15, 2008

New tings in life......enjoying! (^_^)

so mny happenings lately...but most importantly are e new tings n happenings in my life...
long time neve blog...cuz no com to use...but i had finalli got my own lap-top during the IT-Show 2008. but e sad ting is i onli had it wif mi fer 2 daes, then OS corrupted...which i haven done aniting n it's corrupted....but anywae it's fixed liao...so im happi wif it...hee hee

new additions in my life...i finalli make up my mind n 'threw' my money to but my sunglass...(^_^)

when to china juz 2 wks ago, cold lke hell...got sick there...mi n my cousin took turn to get sick...she first then mi...guess is cuz we share e same room n bed...then virus pass to each other...thus got sick till so bad...we both had to go c doc e nxt dae we came back...took 2 daes MC...almost freezed there...

new happenings...im goin to a new place n have a new life soon...tis cumin mth is bery impt to mi...new life, new beginning, new post, new place, eviting new...

USA wait fer mi...im cuming! cant wait to go man! USA is calling out to mi....so exciting!

sum fotos frm my china trip...my auntie n her niece (BAD GAL!!) taking pix wif those old times dough maker.

u noe wat word is tt??? tt's those old times writings...its 'wen qi dao chuan'
e boy boy in e pix is beary beary CUTE!!!!
show u guys more pix nxt time...nn to get pix frm my cousin n mei first...


Saturday, October 20, 2007

IM NOT A MAID! IM NOT A MAID! IM NOT A MAID!!!

Stupid irritating freak! You bad mood is ur own problem oki?! Don take it out on mi!!! Im not ur maid neither am i ur 出气筒!I don have to of ur biddings alright! I was not born for tt STUPID purpose CAN!

Juz becuz i neve do or buy wateva u want doesn't mean u can gif mi tt kind of FxxxxxG attitude Alright! 你不爽是你家的事,不关我的事!!!
Why do i have to endure tis kind of STUPID attitude for 2 days in a row??? WHY?????
Do u guys realli find mi an eye sore? If yes juz let mi noe n i will leave alright?! I have already done all tt i can n given wateva i can for all of you...wat else do u guys want frm mi??? wat do u guys want mi to do???!!!

Juz becuz i don have enough money to pay n u had to pay for mi first then u gif mi tt type of attitude?! WAT THE FXXK!!!! I realli don have to endure tis u noe! I can always leave if u guys realli HATE mi tt much! JUZTELLMI!!!! U done have to gif mi tt attitude! Lke it's my fault! It's not lke im not paying u back can!

I'm realli sick n tired of tis all. I have my stress too alright! I realli don nn u guys to add on...我已经很累了,你们能不能放过我?让我松一口气很难吗?让我放松碍着你们了吗?Wat shld i do? Wat MUZ i do then u guys will stop ur STUPID attitude???? It's realli bery tiring u noe! (T_T)

Sumtimes i realli wish to juz fall a sleep n NEVER EVA wake up again! 真得很想睡着了,就永远别再醒来!Can anione juz tell mi wat shld i do? Im realli lost n tired...sumtimes i realli juz wanna leave eviting behind n leave...(T__T) Juz be by myself, then i won't have so mny problems n troubles...自己一个人会不会好一点?有谁可以告诉我?!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Taiwan 01st - 06th Jul

Hihi...sorry pple fer e delay...wahaha...was kept biz wif mi yeye n all...aniwae here goes wif e details of mi taiwan trip:

1st day 01st Jul:

Went to e Airport wif mi sisters driven by mi jie's bf Mr. Gary Ng..(Thank You Very Much for FETCHNG mi on both trips). We immediately went to check-in upoin arrival...n guess wat? i met Tony (Support Manager) at e check-in counter. After which mi n my mei went fer sum snacks at Polar...used e internet fer a while n we were at the waiting area preparing fer boarding...soon after, we r in e AIR on our WAE to TAIWAN!

Upon arrival into Taiwan, after e LONG n SLOW queue at e immigration, we r finalli n officialli standing on Taiwan ground. Next is to find e driver fer our transfer to e htl - Delight Hotel

The long ride to e htl is exciting n scary at e same time...hmm, am i seeing question marks on all u heads n faces? haha cuz e driver is zig-zaging among all e cars in e heavy traffic, n along e wae we almost collide with other cars when he chnges lane (it happens too many a time). Was realli glad to get off e car man...Happy tt we arrive safe n sound!

After settling into our room, we went fer dinner, but due it's quite lte alreadi, we had dinner at Mac near our htl...e serving is larger than ours here man, n its cheaper too...woa! With tt i end my first dae n nite in Taiwan!

2nd day 02nd Jul:

We went to Ximen ding to meet mi mei's fren earli after hafing our breakfast n taking our baths! Due we arrive earlier than e designated time, we went ard on our own fer a while, n i end up buying lots of tings...hahaha...sure all whu noes mi will be nodding ur heads...cuz i can realli buy when i wanted to...especialli when im not spending in Singapore dollars! My mei is lke: no i cant buy, got to save up fer m upcoming Japan trip. N im lke: haha i can buy all i wan cuz i got no more trips aft tis...wahahaha....(In the background: Evil! ) "whu said tt?! kick ur butt!"

Spend almost e whole dae there, then we went back to e htl to put dw our "goods" n went to ShiLin Ye Shi fer dinner on our own! After making sure tt we shld get off at Jian Tan station, mi n mei set off fer good food...Yum Yum!!

But as im sure all whu noes mi n haf been toShiLin will noe...once again im steered off course again...haha...i end up buying tings again be4 mi n mei went to haf our dinner...(From the background: Haven u buy enough at Ximen?) "But e tings there r realli cute n cheap wat...summore im buying fer frens leh!" eh..whu's tt again? hmm...oh well..don care!

3rd day 03rd Jul:

Once again after breakfast...we set off fer our planned itinerary! We had a walk in the ZhongShan station underground shops...realli it's nuting (wat a waste of time!) Then we went to Taipei station's Xin Guang San Yue fer lunch n shop ard after tt...then we stop over at e Cheng Pin Bookshop located in e station itself...bought quite a few comics...as all whu noes i cant resist books...hee hee (In the background: "Again?! Why buy books?? Isn't it heavy to bring back?) "U again? whu u?" Angry tone..."aniwae cuz e comics r nice n cheaper than here...so if i don't buy will 对不起自己 get it now??? so mny questions!"

We went to Wu Fen Pu after tt to shop again...but other than e 2 cups of bubble tea, we didnt buy aniting else (From e background: "Finalli u neve uy aniting frm sumwhere") "Do u have to tok? So wat if i buy or neve buy? Also neve use ue money...so noisy"

Aniwae...where was i ? oh ya...neve buy aniting frm there cuz i feel tt e tings r almost e same as Ximen Ding but is more expensive than Ximen...so i neve buy...Next we went to e 3 storey cheng Pin...again we bought sum comics here...hahaha...we spent quite sum time in e bookstore...well i realli cant resist e books! Aniwae after tt we went to SOGO n all...then went back to ZhongShan station fer dinner, which i can loudly sae is e lousierest i had in e whole trip!

4th day 04th Jul:

Todae i brought my mei to BeiTou fer Hotspring...yes i noe...u all muz be tinkin i siao...cuz i juz had Hotspring in Japan, n now again in Taiwan..cuz mi mei keep complainting tt she wanna go,,,but can't...so i had to bring her there...Yea n realli it's not e season fer it in Taiwan...cuz it's already so HOT!! But aniwae she had fun can liao la...it's meant to be an experience fer her aniwae...

Then we went onto DanShui after tt...shopping again! Bought quite sumtings tis time by mi mei...n we took bus to Yu Ren Ma Tou...walked uo e bridge named as - 情人桥

Then we had e 好大大鸡排 n fries damn oily la...not good fer health sia! Spent e whole dae in tis 2 places...tiring sia...or maybe cuz it's too HOT! tt's y...

5th day 05th Jul:

Todae is meant to do last minute shopping at Ximen Ding fer mi n mei to buy tings n presents tt we had to but haven buy...but we still went to 101 building n New York New York first in e morning...then we went to Ximen in e late afternoon...n it was pouring lke mad...oh my gosh! ("Did u guys bring umbrella?") "Of couse! I'm not called auntie fer nuting u noe!" ("Huh? Auntie?") "Yea! Got sumone called mi auntie once cuz i always carri an umbrella in my bag" ("...")

Done our last min shopping, n met up wif mi mei's fren whu then bring us to the theme restaurant - Modern Toilet

We had great fun experiencing eating frm e toilet bowl! n bath tub! Haha...also had taken alot of photos while i was in e shop waiting fer mi food to be served. Realli wanted to try drinking frm e 尿壶, but didnt cuz still finds it kind if gross la...hee! My mei's fren keep tryin to get mi mei to do it, cuz she don dare to try...*__*''''

Aniwae, we each had written a card n drop it into e bath tub table...n mi mei is making sure a fuss abt her fren reading wat she had written...dotz sia! can't understand y...since we all had written sumting tt don make sense aniwae...haha...









6th dau 06th Jul:

Last morning in Taiwan...e transfer will be cuming to pick us up at 6A.M. didn't even have aniting to eat...reach e airport after e 3rd pair of pax is being picked up...

Blur as to where we shld be queuing up...cuz its very VERY messy here! There is no definite line as to where is e end n start of e mny lines tt seems to appear out of nowhere...Had to queue n figure fe more than half an hr be4 finalli getting our bags checked-in n getting our boarding passes...my GOD!!!! They realli can get MESSIER by e minute la....

Goin thru e not so long but a bit slow immigration...then finalli we get to e waiting area...soon after we are boarding e plane...n in e air on our wae back HOME! Home Sweet Home!!!

This is wat we bought frm tis trip!

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I realli had to sae i LUV Singapore after goin to Japan n Taiwan...cuz at least here is bery accessible n not so MNY STAIRS to climb...or r we singaporeans juz too SPOILT! n too LITTLE excerises??? Haha...here's e end of both mi trips! YEA!